8th Entry

Many different forms of acceptance are apparent, but the one I generally focus on is from human acceptance. I hust have this strong feeling from the pain I have experienced, and the pain others have had around me due to feelings of loneliness. The tears cried from lack of acceptance, the loneliness contrived from not being accepted. I know it seems like a girl thing, the major part of high school for teenage girls but everyone experiences this, people of all age, gender, and back ground. There is still a longing for adults for acceptance and compainionship. Compainionship and acceptance go hand in hand, acceptance can be achieved through compainionship. You wonder why all those older women read those trashy romance novels, or the ones about the trials of friendship or sisterhood. I mean I've read the back covers of some of my mom's novels and definetely see a reoccuring theme. Then there are those romance novels for teens that makes billions of dollars, definetely not by coincidence or chance. These writers tap into this drive of human nature that we cannot ignore. There is a demand for novels with the drive for human nature fufilled, an ideal or fantasy fulfilled is what human beings want to read because it coincides to real life. Humans are driven by the ideal of acceptance, but then I find myself questioning this once again. If acceptance is so important to human beings, why do human beings make it so difficult for others to find some form of acceptance? I still find myself asking why, why do we want something so bad and we know how bad we want it (the longing we have for it) but often times we make it difficult for others to reach it. There are a select few in the world that hlp others, but you can never avoid the thoughts in your head saying what a loser or I'm glad I'm not them. Maybe what someone like Mother Theresea doesn't have those exact thoughts, but she must have had at least one similair thought in her whole entire life. You can't escape those thoughts, which makes it a natural inclination. But why is it a natural inclination, why do we do this to others. Human beings are social by nature, and thrive for human interaction but I think it makes someone feel superior in that the fact that they are inferior (that there is someone less than us in comparison). The struggle we have to endure when searching for acceptance leaves us with feelings we can't ignore. The scars are definetely deep within us, never going to disappear and leave us the way we were before we experienced from lack of acceptance. I'm trying to search for those perfect words to explain why we make it so difficult for others in our and their quest for acceptance, but I think I'm almost there, just more thinking and blogging will help me with my thesis.