5th Entry

Human being's crave acceptance. High school (prime example of the strive for acceptance where often times people lose themselves in the process) shows people finding themselves, somewhere where they feel accepted. Religion, love, school, sports are just many examples of acceptance humans search for when living. The acceptance I am thinking of isn't just one type of acceptance, like being accepted into the popular group like in all those movies (like Can't Buy Me Love with Patrick Dempsey when he payed a popular girl to go out with him for a month so he could become popular), but I think from personal experience that once you surpass inner turmoil in a quest for the supreme acceptance popularized in movies, books, and songs are you able to live life to its fullest. Finding your niche, somewhere you feel comfortable and a part of, is what I feel is acceptance. It's so easy to use high school with acceptance, because it's like a microcosim of different types of people placed in one single place during awkward stages of trying to find ones selve. This is why I think we have the term best friend, because they are the one closest to you and they do not have any other friend closer. It is like finding someone to listen, talk, and understand during difficult times. This type of acceptance creates a sense of security because there is always someone more special to you than anyone else. The people who don't find acceptance, often times called the loners, are looked upon with sympathy, indifference, or even an urge to comment. Why is it that even though most everyone knows what it feels like one time in their life to feel unaccepted that we don't approach this person? Why do we make it difficult for others to find acceptance. I have been on both sides of the issue, the one left out and the one making someone feel left out. It's like I have the feeling from being unaccepted to make it sure that another person is the one being left out and not allowing me to be the one. It seems like we are scared to with insecurity that it should be as or even more difficult for them to feel accepted. It's like we look at them and think I'm glad that's not me, rather then let me make him feel accepted. There are a few people that ignore the first response and utilize the second, but I question their ability to do it everytime. Why is it so hard to set down from our comfortable seat in the position with others we have obtained and sit in the place of someone less desirable? I feel a pain of guilt when I see someone sitting at lunch alone, but I rarely do anything about it. My conscience sticks with me, and I generally remember it for a really long time and I know it will if I don't do anything, but I still don't do anything. With acceptance being difficult to obtain, human beings try to grip onto it for dear life. Finding something or someone that accepts you for you is one of the best feelings possible.

This is the weirdest thing, as I am writing this I am listening to a cd a friend burned and a song called "She Likes Me For Me" by Third Eye Blind came on. I was humming it because it is one of those songs you have heard in the past and know the lyrics, it's like reliving memories, so I start singing and it hits me, these lyrics are perfect. Like as I was typing the last sentence of the last paragraph I am listening to him tell all his flaws, but she likes him for him. I'm going to post the lyrics because they are just so perfect for my point; a modern interpretation of human nature shown through a 90's rock band.